“It’s a matter of you leading/following or getting out of the way ”. Ng’ang’a The Blogger
There was a time I was and I used to be a weaning baby, yes a toothless child. Those were the days I was not fathoming what really goes on around the world. I did not know much about planet earth. I only had a vague glimpse of my mother and a few people who used to baby-seat me.
All that I experienced during that time was absolute irresistible love, everybody wanted to poke my face telling me, “Grow, grow child.”
Time drifted slowly, I gradually started having a handle on environment which I was in. The Kikuyu accent started to imbibe and not long I started pronouncing ‘green’ as ‘gleen’ . I could not tell what the difference between ‘L’ and ‘R’ was in terms of elocution, for in any case no one sees the picture while inside the frame. I later came to find that’s the real identity of Kikuyus you know Mount Kenya’s chaps.
Time to get schooled came, I entered class enthusiastic and zealous but worst of it , I didn’t know why I was in school. Maybe age dictated? Or my parents forced me. Time went on and a little while I started realizing that being in school makes one a doctor, a lawyer, an engineer and less than that was an abomination. So I started singing, “ when I grow up I would like to be a doctor!” Not because I had the doctor genes in my veins but because the atmosphere by then dictated so. As a child I was never conscientious of my life. I cared less. I didn’t have to worry so much about myself, someone else was. My mother was at the forefront in ensuring that I was as much comfortable as possible.
I was innocent : Very innocuous indeed. Ask Jesus, if his second coming was during my childhood era, I could have gotten an uninterrupted entry to the so-said glory and paradise of heaven .
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But today things have changed, taken a rather new course. I would say that, today am held responsible of my actions and moves. . Today am required to set my own principles and guidelines to adhere to. Am always planning and laying strategies ahead of time on how to make my life a success .Things that I never I did as a youngster. I have to say a strong NO to some things because I have already said YES to some other better ones.
Peoples’ pseudo –love has faded away . Nobody shows their love and compassion towards me. Others doing this deliberately because I have my own unique core values that I uphold and whoever doesn’t embrace them doessn’t become part of me. I apply jig-saw fit theory, if you do not fit then suit yourself. It’s a matter of you leading/following or getting out of the way. No wonder I have very few friends around me.
Let me strongly bear a witness that I envy infancy life by all means. A good feeling, when the entire society is minding about your well being among numerous other things. But who said I was to forever remain a child? I am now in realistic world where am compelled to face world on my own. A lone ranger. I have to hold fort of my life, liking it as it is and fighting very hard to change where I can.
When all is gone and seems like nothing is what it used to be, God almighty’s love and care remains unchanged . He guides us only when we accept to be in him.
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